My diet is out of control. It's horrible. And the more I'm reading about Buddhism, the more I'm thinking I need to cleanse my body and give it a fresh start.

I've tried such plans in the past, but my motivations were always results oriented. And when I didn't see a reduction in the frequency of my migraines, I jumped ship. I have rationalized my poor choices by telling myself it doesn't matter or impact my migraines anyway. Yet, how can I honestly say this is true? Even if a few sodas don't happen to be the cause of my migraines, they can't be helping. And I'm drinking way more than a few sodas these days. That caffeine and sugar rush has become a total crutch for me in getting through each day.

So to start, I'm simply working on kicking the soda to the curb. It's a prime target because it's bad for my health, it's expensive and it does not fit my environmetally-oriented values. I'm also trying to be more conscious of eating a balanced, fiber rich diet, avoiding my known triggers. But I don't want to be too hard on myself while I'm detoxing from soda.

Interestingly enough, Kerrie at The Daily Headache is having similar thoughts about her diet and is planning a controlled experiment intended to address the issue. Check out her thoughts on the topic: Drastic Migraine Elimination Diet: It's Time.

I've come to feel as though my soda addiction is my dirty little secret. The hubby C and I had a long conversation about it just before drifting off to sleep last night, and he is more than on board and completely supportive. He has been (kindly) trying to push me in this direction for quite a while now.

It's such an issue in my life that C asked me to tell my therapist, and I freaked out a little inside. I feel so ashamed that I can't imagine admitting this to anyone other than my family. Of course, Dr. O sometimes reads this blog, so I may have outted myself regardless of my desire to keep my secret. And that is okay. Keeping secrets doesn't feel good at all. It weighs on your spirit and sucks all the fun out of life.

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