Comments on Somebody Heal Me: Grieving My Old Dreams

Aw hon, my heart just goes out to you so hard. I&...

2010-03-08T16:34:06.381-06:00

Aw hon, my heart just goes out to you so hard. I'll be praying for you-- you deserve everything that you want from life and more! I recently had a professor suggest I drop out of college after my first paper was late because of a flare-up. He didn't know I was 23, had already taken a year and a half away from school, was only taking 2 classes, and didn't know if I would ever be

You made me cry, Kelly!

2010-03-01T15:37:31.109-06:00

You made *me* cry, Kelly!

I cried reading your post, Diana. My heart goes ou...

2010-03-01T15:25:41.267-06:00

I cried reading your post, Diana. My heart goes out to you. I grieve with you. My career took a similar path yours did. I got my masters in speech language pathology, got my dream job and then a couple years in had to quit because of my health. And lately, I've had so much sorrow that I am not in a position to take care of a child and may never be.

What struck me most is what you

I am also right there with you. Unfortunately. And...

2010-03-01T14:50:54.728-06:00

I am also right there with you. Unfortunately. And I still feel (5+ years in) that this is just a stopover until I get back on my *real* journey. I want to get back to my real life, and not this holding pattern of pain I find myself in.

Great entry. I hope you (and all of us) can find some measure of peace.

It's not quite the same, Stephanie, but my mom...

2010-03-01T14:11:35.711-06:00

It's not quite the same, Stephanie, but my mom once made a comment about me not being able to take care of a dog if I got one that absolutely crushed me. It hurt so bad. :(

Thanks for all the thoughts. It helps to know I'm not alone in having these feelings.

I keep wanting to write a post about how, before I...

2010-03-01T13:15:41.160-06:00

I keep wanting to write a post about how, before I fell ill, at every family gathering it was, "When are YOU gonna have a baby?" and "It's your turn next!" Now, if it comes up, they say, "Oh, I don't know how you would care for a baby. Don't have any kids until you are better."

What if I'm never better?

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You are right to want so much more, and somehow I ...

2010-03-01T09:55:15.836-06:00

You are right to want so much more, and somehow I know you will attain it!

There is situational depression and brain chemical depression. I imagine it is so much worse to if you have both combined. I bottom out every so often (situational depression) but have the genetic advantage of natually "up" brain chemicals, so I bounce back pretty quickly, even from having cancer,

I completely understand where you are coming from....

2010-03-01T09:04:22.901-06:00

I completely understand where you are coming from. I feel the same way. Though on the baby issue I'm backwards to you. Before my headache I was thinking about having a child and DH wasn't sure. Since the headache I can only be thankful that I don't have to worry about taking care of a baby. Half the time I feel like I can't take care of myself.

Although my migraines are not nearly as bad as you...

2010-03-01T08:54:49.500-06:00

Although my migraines are not nearly as bad as yours, I have some of the same feelings about family and the future. It really blows any notion of Karma right out of the water for me. So now I go with the theory that sooner or later something's gotta give.